I call him WTF!

I have known ‘this’ guy for quite a long time. We were friends, well, actually we’re not always in good terms because he always gets that perverse thrill in teasing me or irritate me in any way he could. He would always oppose everything I say and I would get mad at him and we would be bickering with one another. He never fails to ruin my day.

Though we were always fighting, we still remain as friends. Yes, I would admit that he’s also as damn good friend as he’s irritating. Sometimes, we would just talk some crazy and stupid things, laugh at each other’s joke but then later on we would just end up fighting again for some inane reason. But that’s the best part of it. Funny, but I’ve started to enjoy each time we were like that.

And that’s it! It had never occurred to me. Whenever I thought about him (Hey, I’m not saying I thought about him; he just like crossed my mind from time to time, okay?) I always figured of him as the single most irritating person I’ve ever met, but what the heck? I did not notice that I was already trapped. I fell in his booby trap and I couldn’t escape anymore. I tried to conceal the feelings because I was afraid I might lose our friendship.

Then came one day that he suddenly confessed to me that he was beginning to fall for me. I was dumbfounded. And yes, I was happy upon hearing that from him. So, I thought of confessing about my feelings for him too, but I ended up keeping that for myself.  Did I ever mention that I never had a relationship before? I had kept this promise to my mom and my friends that I will never have a boyfriend unless I’ve already finished my studies. So, that pushed me to divert and disregard the idea and told him that it was just another part of his practical joke. He got mad and it was my fault, I know. After that incident, he never bothered to open that idea again but the good thing is that we remain as friends.

One day, I just learned that he already had a girlfriend. They seemed to be happy together because he has totally forgotten me. I started not to talk to him or even text him. I was really hurt. My heart seemed to bleed inside. And then I found out from a common friend that he and his girlfriend already broke up. I know it may sound bad but I was so happy when I heard the ‘good news’. (Hahahaha!)

And we’re back again to ‘normal’, back in our usual dog-cat relationship. I don’t know where this game would lead us but as long as he is there for me and knowing that he is not committed to anyone… I’m contented. =)

But, I never expect that things would get harder for me. Each day that passes by, my feelings for him gets stronger and I even thought of breaking the promise I had with my mom and my friends. Then suddenly he just got rid of me. He made me fall for him and then all of a sudden he told me that I should forget about him. That really crashed me inside and I hated him for that. I didn’t bother to ask him anymore why he wanted me to stay away from him. So there… he was my first love, my first heartbreak, and I call him WTF!